Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Soundtrack Turned Mix Tape

I think we've all been there.  It's been a hell of a day.  You broke a nail.  You got your heart broken.  You didn't get the job you wanted.  You lost the job you had. 
Life is looking down.
But we've also been at the opposite end of the spectrum.  You get the job.  You acquire a lump sum of money.  You get the promotion. 
Life is looking up.
I honestly cannot say that many things have been consistent throughout my life.  I cannot say that the scenery with which my life has played out upon has remained static at all.  We moved frequently when I was a young child.  My friends came and went with every move.  My parents and sister were consistently there, for which I am incredibly thankful, but we were all on our own journeys though we journeyed as a family.  Our consistency to one another and to ourselves was evolving as were we. 
But one thing has always been true for me no matter the ups and downs:
Few things feel better to me than turning up the music, grabbing a hairbrush turned microphone, and dancing my heart out in front of my mirror.
I still do this.
On the regular.
Dearest travels every now and again.  When he is gone, after I get the kids to bed, I put my headphones on, blare my music, and dance my heart out.
I feel like I'm a little bit immature for doing this, but it feels so right I care less and less with each dance session.  I love what music does.  I love how it connects with your soul in a way that few other things do.   I love the emotion with which an artist can evoke just by playing a few notes on the piano, guitar, or violin.  I love how a song can say the things your heart has been longing to express.
I love music, and I love to have fun while listening to it.
I recently read an article with Adele, and she was speaking to this.  She talked about how Britney Spears and Beyoncé were on the, "soundtrack of her life."  She spoke of how we all have our own soundtrack, and those on the soundtrack help raise us.  They help us grow into who we are at the moment.
I pondered on this.  I found that incredibly poignant.  It's absolutely true, I think.
However, I feel a bit wonky for saying this, but I think soundtrack is too sophisticated of a word for what you would call the music blaring behind me in life.  "Soundtrack," indicates some kind of collection; a group of songs that belong to one another.  I'm kind of too much of a mess for that.  I'm more like a mix tape kind of gal.  As in, when they make my movie the music will be absolutely wonderful, but it won't necessarily be sensible.
Kind of like me.
I mean, I'm fine with it, but I just don't think I'm classy enough to have an actual soundtrack.
So, today I'm going to give you a glimpse into my life, and I'm going to give you a piece of my mix tape.  These songs are all on my iPod, and are routinely played.
Fair warning: I don't really make sense.
But you already knew that.
1. Scream It Out by Ellie Goulding
3. 3,000 Miles by Tracy Chapman
4. Wild Things by Alessia Cara
5. What Sarah Said by Death Cab for Cutie
6. YOUTH by Troye Sivan
7. I Belong to You by Brandi Carlile
8. Wait for It from the Hamilton Soundtrack
9. Sorry by Justin Bieber
10. Home by Vitamin String Quartet

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